Current mood:	calm
Current music:	sundance!!!

i don't got no job!!! LOL
so yesterday was my last day at michaels. and instead of running the hell out of there and not wanting to ever see those people ever again, i got teary eyed. i think it was lou and sheri's fault. i sat in the breakroom talking to lou for like a half an hour. we both started cashiering at the same time two years ago and he could always make me laugh. when i told him it was my last day he was like, "man, it sucks that you're leaving." and then a little later when i was walking up to the breakroom he saw me and he was like, "is this it?" and i said "almost" cuz i still wanted to find sheri. so he holds out his arms and gives me a big hug and i'm like, "i'm gonna miss you guys!!!" and then i went in the back and found sheri and she was like, "are ya leavin?" and i said i guess so and she gave me a hug too and she was like, "it's been fun working with you, the short time that i did, don't forget to stop back in and say hi, and good luck substituting!!" and i was on the verge of friggin TEARS. then i saw debbie, who i've worked with the whole time too, and she goes, "oh please, i'm not saying bye, you're into all this craft crap, you'll be in here every day anyway." LOL. way to save the moment, deb.

even bill was nice to me, which made me mad, because i wanted to yell at him. i wanted him to think he was the WHOLE REASON i was leaving. but he asked me why i was going and i told him about the substituting and he goes, "oh wow, that's wonderful!" and i'm like grrrr LOL.

the two ladies that work in floral wished me luck and said they'd miss me too. i think it was because it reminded them of this other girl that worked there for like four years and they LOVED her because she was a hardworker and a big help. she got her degree in social work and just left last summer. i was so jealous of her when she left. and now i kinda feel like her.

so yeah. i like that i left good feelings behind. now i can still shop there LOL.

and it's weird because i know i'm going to miss it. but i'm going to miss how it WAS. it's changing so much and i want to leave while i remember it being such an awesome place to work.

i also left barbara, the class coordinator, a little note in her mailbox since she wasn't there. she was the one that had me do the kids classes and when i asked her if i could use her as a reference, she had said, "oh of course! you know i'll give you a glowing report." so i left her a little note saying thank you and i'll miss her and i loved working with her and yes I GOT TEARY EYED DURING THAT TOO. i really liked her. she was like a grandma to me.

and i need to stop saying all this in past tense. these people will still be there. i can always go back and say hi. they are, after all, like 10 minutes away.

so today's my first day of freedom. i slept til 12, which i don't think i've done in like a YEAR. god that felt good. and then last night kyle had said he's running out of room for his clothes because he had to buy new ones, so i cleaned out three drawers in my dresser for him. i've kinda taken over the closet and one of our two dressers, and the dresser that's mine was nothing but craft stuff. i just have underwear and stuff in 3 of its 9 drawers, the rest was crochet books and yarn and whatnot. so i put them on the bookshelf in one of the living rooms and now kyle has more space LOL. and i'm starting to see how much friggin yarn i have. it's EVERYWHERE. i need to either whip up some scarves and sell them at the flea market or just sell the yarn. cuz i think i'm out of control lol.

next week is my last week of my summer classes. =) after that i will be just THREE CLASSES away from my associates. THAT FEELS SO FRIGGIN GOOD. and i think i'm gonna start my bachelor's in the spring, because the professor i have for psych of adolescence right now might be doing a really neat class for that university in the spring, so i wanna be enrolled. why not keep the ball rolling anyway. =D

poptart and i talked for like an hour last night (i'm not sure why this is significant, we talk for longer than that on a daily basis LOL). but we just talked about the house and getting along and the bills and whatnot. everyone's kinda stressed right now over our electric bill. but i don't feel like getting into that lol.

matt got a full time job. i'm gonna be mean here, but i'm hoping he'll start saving up to move out and hopefully be out sooner. kyle doesn't think he will. he thinks he'll just start spending money cuz he has it. i really don't know.

i like our little family (sometimes even matt). i really do. i like having poptart right across the hall so she can't ignore me on aim LOL. i like having joey here because he's a mediator and if it weren't for him i would flip out everytime something in the house broke. and of course i love kyle for reasons you people prolly don't wanna hear about. LMAO. kidding. i love him because he appreciates me and he keeps me motivated and he makes me laugh all the time. and i am being completely and 100% honest when i say i don't want poptart and joey to leave (not that i want kyle to leave, i just figured that'd be a given lol). and i really hope they don't feel like i do. just because i get mad or stressed about something doesn't mean i just want you guys out. it's like if i get mad at kyle i just want him to fix it and i'll be fine LOL. but i really do truly love living with them and they can stay here forever if they want LOL. we'll just hafta start tacking on more bedrooms if we have kids and stuff haha.

i'm wondering if all this happiness is coming from that heavenly baloney sandwich i had earlier.